Well I was sure that I was going to be a week if not a month early as I read and believe to many of what "they" say...."they" being the people with advice, criticsm, judgments and predictions....this comes from people at work, friends, books, articles, computer....yes I have learned to take so much more with a grain of salt but I think the impending notion of having a busy, congested freeway separating me from my epidural and doctors was not a comforting one....so I was hoping Kieren would be kind and come when freeways weren't busy.....although they are always busy. I have talked to my doctors about induction and they looked at me funny as if "why would you ask that?" (Even though they were the same folks who even brought it in as an option at one previous visit) According to the formentioned "They" sources-this has become quite the trend and quite normal....although when I read the cons I wasn't a fan. I am all for it happening natural yet not in the car and making the 5 o'clock news. So when it finally got down to the wire we decided to schedule an indcution if nothing happened. I asked my parents to come down about a week earlier and my mom's time was running short....thus the scheduled appt...not only did I not want to rob them of a happier, smoother experience for them (and us) I also knew the help would be great this time round with now having Cameron in the picture. So they did what grandparents always do-were so supportive and helpful and spoiled Cam. He needed the distraction and he got parks and Chucke Cheese treatment to no end. It was Chris's bday and we had a small lil dinner and cake for him. We then got to go to a movie-I felt a little uncomfortable but when you ate so much and are due any day who wouldn't right? About 2:00am I woke up feeling aches in my belly and thought "Oh it must be from sleeping on one side"....so after switching sides and going to bathroom multiple times the pain grew and still never knowing how to time contractions I said "let's go!" We got into the car and I thanked god it was 2:15 am and no traffic-thanks Kieren! But I also wasn't convinced that I wouldn't be a story on the news just yet. I have to say this second time round I was in major pain on way there and when we got there I felt like "why is everyone so calm and why aren't they helping me?!" The man at the front was calm and almost has a glazed look like he had seen this a zillion times (of which he had)...and hey it wasn't his pain so no biggie! Then the nurses who check you in to monitor you and check your progress were asking me information of which they told me when I had filled out info months earlier was supposedly for the exact reason of not having to deal with this....I used the bathroom but couldn't stop moving I was in so much pain. They took me to a station and asked me to lie down and I said I couldn't so they decided to admit me right away..."gee ya think?!" So after going to the delivery room and almost passing out after trying to use bathroom one more time I was taken to a bed. The epidural or as I call him mercy man randomly walked by...I almost missed him and soon to know almost missed my window of getting my epidural since I was so far along.....they told me they wouldn't be able to give me the epidural unless I could bend over more and with my stomach where do you bend? At that point I was like "shove me over and do it!" Luckily I got the epidural and it helped take most of the pain away....with Cameron I didn't feel any pain...this time it was still there some and it was easier to feel when there was pressure. Next thing you know we were pushing ...my nurse was an angel and was 2 pushes away from delivering the baby herself....I now know why there are nurses.....they make up for the lack of personality the doctors have. My own doctor wasn't there which happens...thank god I am not a stickler with those things and it doesn't freak me out as long as someone who has capabilities are there....so this other doctor...while good she was as dry as toast. Based on Cameron's birth and the uncertainties that went with it....all the apprehension set it. Cameron was not breathing when born (my labor went fast and drugs still in my and his system is what I know happened)and instead of the story tale ending...we saw him whisked away to NIC unit along with Chris and doctors. So I held my breath and then I heard the best wail! Music to our ears. And then I took a breath! This beautiful little being was presented to me and placed in my arms and it felt like all the baby shows that were picture perfect. It is funny and pretty amazing how fast time seems to fly and how adreneline overpowers pain and having how conversations while someone you don't know stitches you where needed is as easy as breathing. And I was hungry I too ha! My parents had not known when to come to hospital and with Cameron...when to wake him up but at 5 finally were on there way and came in the room. I know Cameron was tired and I am sure confused but I will never forget that sweet little face looking shell shocked....I think more at looking at his mom laying in a big bed hooked up to all kinds of things and then this foreign little tiny baby everyone called "his brother." I asked him to crawl up next to me as I could sense he was pretty freaked out and gave him some reassuring hugs/kisses. He got to see his brother and dad. It was a different experience this time...they tip toed around me and waited on me hand and foot when all that went down with Cameron and I think I didn't quite realize what a basket case emotionally I was then still to this day as I somehow thought I would get the same support and tlc as I did then. Oh no....a quick, easy delivery to a healthy baby that was baby no 2 for us means you are apparently a pro....Cameron was not in the room with me for several days....Kieren was. I had nurses who were breastfeeding naztsi's either shoving him on me or shoving me on a pump with Cam....here I had to ask if I should try feeding him....no pump mentioned. I didn't change hardly a diaper or any at all with Cam....here I thought "hmm....been awhile since i have seen a nurse this shift...am I supposed to change him?" Answer was yes....after I called to ask. So hooked up to things I did. I had a neighboring woman who snored loudly and was so glad she was outta there sooner than later. Chris even went home and showered and stayed at our house overnight everything went so well-I barely let him go with Cam. We had limited visitors.....I kept my announcement mainly to text and we got many back as well as messages....immediate family and a visit from Brad and Amy and later...So we opted to leave a day early as long as they felt all was fine and I felt really good all things considering. The crazier thing to me was that a day later Chris and I went out to lunch and had a drink-felt so strange. So fortunate to have 2 healthy boys and Kieren is such a doll....he will be loved lots in the upcoming months!
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